Hello my name is miss insecure.  I paint a smile on my face, I stick my nose in the air and I ignore your comments and then I walk.  Step. Step. Step. What you see I don’t know, and what you don’t know is what I see.  My personality changes on a dime. I’m a little less obnoxious than I present myself to be, because it’s easy for you to dislike me for what i am not than to dislike me for what I am. I know that I talk about alcohol, and I know that I talk about drugs almost 24/7, and I do that because I hope you’ll think I’m annoying and I hope you’ll never speak to me again. But I give my heart and soul to the people who actually stay. 

I’m trying to change.

              What you think it’s easy?

I’m trying to put my trust into people for once because I need to accept the fact that not everyone is going to hurt me.

Even though many will, many will hurt me.

I’m more than the fat girl you know me as. I’m more than an alcoholic or drug junkie. I’m Megan who can be as caring as you’ll ever need someone to be, whose sweet but gets hurt by people to easily. A smile can make me, a frown can kill my day. I’m megan who loves to party and have a good time, but I do like to sit down and watch scary movies. I’m megan who’ll get up in your face if you disrepesect me or my friends, but i’m megan who also doesn’t believe in putting my fist into your face. “What goes around comes around.” I’m megan who wants to be more than a one night stand, but will accept one night stands because I like to have fun, and i’m Megan that I think sex is fun. I love kissing, I love cuddling. I’m megan that loves to be told what to do, but I am also Megan that can be a great leader. I want to bartend and own my own club, and i’m megan who never wants to grow up and be an adult. I’m megan that will figure out more about me.

Hello, my names Megan.